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My novel is literally killing me right now. I started creating it and published it on a whim out of boredom and because I was rather proud for a first try. I wanted to know if it was good in the eyes of others too and gets opinions.
And like a miracle, 2 days later, WB announced contest #31: Path to idoldom which was right my novel's topic, so I decided to participate.
As I wanted, readers were interested and propelled me to 321th place (for now) in the original novels. I'm glad to see my first novel ever doing so well so quickly, but I've come to stress.
I've never published anything before, and I'm afraid I'll get tired of writing and abandon those readers who encourage me so well.
However, I already have enough ideas in mind for at least 5 volumes and even made an Outline Plot. I already have 18 chapters written (not all of them are published) I even know the messages I want to convey in my novel and really want to share it.
But I've come to stress so much that my stomach is tied up in knots and I haven't been able to sleep well for 2 days.
Should I just give up my novel since I'm not sure if I'll be able to complete it? Because I saw how readers are demanding here, but I don't see myself succeeding in publishing every day and I'm afraid to disappoint them.
I want many people to enjoy my story because I love it, I'm proud of it, I know messages I want to convey, etc. but at the same time I don't want to fall into the trap of "More chapters now plzzz." Because of that, I even deleted a chapter I had already published.
After all, I didn't start writing in order to get a contract, but just to share my overflowing imagination. I want many to read it; be on the home page (featured?) so many discover it; but not have any commitment to readers (in a way). Selfish, isn't it?
Please, help me. Are there other authors who have gone through the same dilemma as me or something similar?
Nb: Sorry if my English isn't perfect. (French) I hope you still understood?