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For me, I always liked to write, but I never had the confidence in my work to do so.
Only when I made it to high school years ago, When I started to believe in my abilities as a writer, thanks to an unlikely person who despite my rocky relationship with them, they still gave me an honest opinion, and said that my writing is worth putting it out there.
During my college years, I took a two years break from a lot of things including writing.
but this year was the first one I came back to doing this, and I have to admit that I was afraid I was going to hate this experience again, because I've already abandoned so many fictions I wrote before, left incomplete and I just never went back to them.
But surprisingly I stood my ground longer than I thought I would! and till now I'm still writing even when I get those weird feelings that maybe, I messed up! maybe my story isn't good! maybe people find is too complicated or off putting in a way!
I still fought myself to continue writing and with each chapter I write, I feel better about making this decision to go back to writing.
I can say that what pushes me to keep writing, is something made up of various factors.
There's the fact that someone, believed in me at first and gave me a compliment, which I never thought I needed until they did give it to me.
There is also the fact that I believed in myself, even if it was little, I tried and I put my work out there no matter how weird or cringy or even worthless I thought it would be.
There's also the fact that there is some people currently that enjoy what I do, and push me to give them more in a good way.
And I would really hate disappointing these people and stop writing, when I can tell that they are enjoying my books.
There's also the factor of you only live once YOLO!
and I seriously don't want to live a life, where I would regret not doing something when I had the chance and the capacity to do it, because I just thought about everything that can go wrong, instead of thinking about everything else that could go right.
So far this is all I can think of that pushes me to keep writing, and I feel really happy that I'm doing this right now.
If you read up till this point, thank you so much and I hope that you also if you are a writer have something to push you in a good way to keep writing.