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I think it's just a mental problem that people have sometimes. Honestly a bit hurt after reading your post, not to the point of tears. Because I was suicidal like 3 years back and my older brother attempted many times when he was very young. We both grew up in a bad household which isn't an excuse that can be greater than what your grandmother's friend went through whatsoever.
You see every human has a flight or fight response when it comes to dangers. And what I believe is that some people's flight or fight response is slightly broken, or defaulted. And so when they encounter even the smallest of problems, instead of thinking about how to fix it, a.k.a the fight response. their mind instead changes it to a flight response, so they end up trying to find a way out that is quick and effective, without the thought of how it will effect others around them. Which is why some people find the act extremely selfish of them. But their minds have an anomally which doesn't let them think about this problem, and instead tells them that what they're thinking is just and proper.
Some people that are suicidal go through extreme episodes of doubt and pain, because they do understand that their families will be effected, etc. But they don't have the proper medical help to properly choose to do something differently. In fact many people that are suicidal don't understand it all, I went through many months of fighting the urge and imagining ways in which I could hurt myself, as in opening the car door and jumping out. But I managed to hold myself only because of the extreme experiences that I had everytime my brother would call me from a hospital and I would cry because I asked him to not do anything while I was gone. So I understood those feelings, but other people don't because they've never experienced it. And or their mind is just that faulty.
Yes, you can live without suicide, I get that. But I don't think they should go to hell just because they made a bad decision, yes, people in the world go through fucking hell, and they're woo's isn't even a quarter of what those people felt but that doesn't mean that they're feelings are any less worse than anyone elses.
I still go through the hell of trying to contain my emotions, which honestly is no fucking good. And have been itching to seek medical help and therapist help, but my family sadly doesn't understand the issue because I look just fine on the surface. I have to push super hard for them to realize, and even then it feels like I'm just too much of a financial burden to them, that I would rather just decide to finish it and just leave. But I try to take as much of the smmall amount of strength that I have, mentally, and emotionally, to keep away from those desires and fears.
So I understand how horrible it can be to have mental/emotional issues. So yeah, we're kind of pieces of shits cause we don't understand how to stop those horrible demons that we have deep inside. And yeah, I understand that your opinion is based on your life experiences, so don't worry about causing me any deep emotions of dislike or anything like that. Just felt like I would be doing every depressed person justice by explaining a bit. That's all~