Thirteenth Thought: Terrible fear of syringes
I have always been afraid of getting shots, but I know I should receive them. Although I need them, I will never like them. That's my mentality for many things I do not like. Anyway, why would I cry at the thought of going to a clinic for shots? I guess the fear stems from past traumatic experiences. I will list them here.
1) The arm receiving the shot will feel a huge sting when poked by the syringe, then I can feel the needle sliding in and out.
2) After the needle is out, my arm aches for at least a day. The feeling is so uncomfortable that I cannot wear a jacket or sweater without irritation (soreness). I cannot even hold pencils. Luckily for me, my doctor says it's not serious.
3) I once felt itchy so I moved to scratch my arm with the arm not receiving shots. This moved my body at an angle that the needle was stuck for a long moment before the guy could pull it out. I thought I even broke it because I was a dumb kid who broke everything.
Then, there are blood tests. They hold a special place in my heart although I've only had my blood tested once after my mother would not believe the 'worms' on my hips were stretch marks. The first and only time seemed to be going well for a bit. The lady told me to count to fifteen or something, so I did. Then she said something. "There is no blood here, let's try this again." So, I looked as she pulled the huge thing out and proceed to stab me with a weird face. Then, she asked me if I could see the blood being drawn as if that would distract me. Even with blurred vision, I saw the special syringe slowly fill with my blood. I thought I would pass out, but nope. I stumble out of the room whilst holding a cottonball and my arm was dead. When I cannot hold a pencil with 'regular' shots, I could not lift my arm after drawing blood.
Stab me in the arm with a pencil, fork, or anything else that is pointy/sharp, I am fine with that.
So, summary of shared fears thus far: matches/fireworks/anything that can blow up and burn, and any type of syringe