I was a scaredy-cat.
I was always scared of rejection… scared of failing… scared of disappointing my parents. I wanted to achieve mini-goals and dreams but because of these fears, I end up playing safe all the time. Don’t get me wrong, it’s okay to play safe. But while everything was happening in my normal life, I still experienced rejections… failures… and had in some way (though they didn’t tell me) disappointed my parents once or twice (maybe more).
You see, despite knowing what to avoid, I still ended up experiencing the things I did not want to experience. But because I choose to surround myself with positive people, I became an optimist.
As they say, “You are what you think”.
And I believe that. I kept thinking that it’s okay to make mistakes… it’s okay to fail… Because what matters most is that I learn from it. I pat myself on the back and say, “It’s okay, you did your best.”
Being optimistic has brought me to become a person who chooses happiness as long as I’m not stepping on someone’s toes — as long as I’m not hurting anyone. So in college, after graduation and even until now, I follow a path, making sure that my decisions would bring me happiness. Life is too short to stress about petty little things.
I worked in a company once that paid well but I left when I realized that I wasn’t happy. I earned less in my next job but I couldn’t complain because I loved what I was doing and eventually, my salary increased too. And the best thing is, I’m doing something that brings me joy.
Now I’m not saying that you should quit your jobs if you’re feeling crappy… I mean, at least be smart about it and make sure that you’ll live if you do. What I’m trying to say is that, amidst the little problems in life, the crappy routine in the rat race, and the bills and responsibilities that keep piling up…
Take a step back, smile at your family, your loved ones, your achievements ( big or small), remind yourself how lucky and blessed you are to have these simple things in life that other people don’t even have.
There are actually so many things that I want to say about love. (I'm a romance fiction writer, I know my readers will agree with me XD) I'm a romantic person... but there is one thing that I learned in life, love is something that you cannot force nor ignore. And love is patient... I will admit that I met my better half when I least expected. But just like what I said...
You can't ignore love. The feeling will stay with you... and it's up to you how what you're going to do about it. But one thing is for sure – if you do find and meet that person, hold on and don't let go. No one else will sail the ship for you except yourself. Go choose your happiness.
Happiness is a decision. Not a destination.
Stay positive. Stay happy.
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