Yeah no I'm with you. When writing the more activity I see in the audience of readers the happier I get. This is because I can see that the text is interesting and connecting with the readers.

That's why I love being there in person to see how someone reacts to my work. Sometimes they chuckle, sometimes I leave empty portions of the story for later to see if my msg was understood, even when the reader doesn't necessarily like the genre I am writing with a good enough delivery they are able to relate and connect to the character even without noticing, and for me that's always an accomplishment as a writer.

Hell even when they start envisioning a possible ending at least I notice that it caught their interest even if they choose not to read. I don't know XD. I just have fun writing, and reading

    Rak0 Yep! I even like it if they cursed some characters of the story. Some people would even threatened to stop reading if I do this and that. I actually don't mind and just laugh. At the end of the day, our mental health is very important.

    I'm probably going to waste people's time, but here's a perspective from that of a writer. I know I have been told multiple times that I have no right to call myself an author, and that I don't deserve to be a writer, and that I should give up because of my lack of talent and f off from the website (yeah, people actually said that to me), but whatever.

    I maintain a daily release schedule by virtue of writing quite a few chapters and stockpiling them before I finally took the first step and published them. Obviously months went by and nobody read them, I received no comments, no sign that people were reading them. That was fine, I didn't really care. Then came the abuse, the insults, the bad reviews. Mixed with them were some people who liked what I was writing, and left some comments or reviews. So I kept writing.

    Then I fell seriously sick for two to three weeks, and didn't write at all. As you can imagine, my stockpile began running out at an alarming rate. By the time I recovered enough to write, my stockpile was dangerously low to the point I almost couldn't maintain a daily update.

    Around this point of time, someone demanded mass release. I had to explain to them that I was busy (I was also doing an eight-week exam on top of having just recovered from an illness) and couldn't indulge them. However, there were quite a few of these demands, and I sort of forced myself to not only juggle with my exam but also try to write 2-3 chapters a day. And as you know, it takes me 3-4 hours to write just one chapter. So I didn't sleep, I didn't eat much, just so I could rebuild my stockpile to ensure a steady daily release (and I was writing 2 stories at a time), and probably start saving up enough for a mass release.

    You can probably tell that it didn't turn out very well for me. I fell sick again from overwork, had a fever and stuff. And while I was sick, someone left a one-star review, calling my story garbage and essentially told me to stop writing. Can you imagine how it feels to spend all that effort, invest all that time, overwork to the point of falling sick, just to get a single one-star review telling me my story was garbage and insinuating that I should delete it?

    Shortly after that, I had a flood of people complaining about one of my stories, spamming low reviews. I learned that apparently one writer's fans had discovered my story, which was similar to his, and they all decided to downvote it to oblivion so that their favorite writer could climb above me in the ranking or something. Someone even reported me for plagiarism and forced me to delete the story and I did.

    That was fine. I got rid of it and focused on my other story. Managed to stockpile enough for a mass release. The second (or was it third?) time I did a mass release, guess what? Some guy comes in with another review, telling me, "drop + delete" - at first I thought he was telling me to drop and delete my story, but later he clarified and claimed that he meant he was dropping it and deleting it from his Library. Okay. But whatever the case, it feels like I got slapped in the face for trying to fulfil the request of providing mass release.

    So yeah. What was the point? You might tell me, "do it for the readers who love your story" - but they are a tiny minority compared to the people who hate my story or hate me for whatever reason. You might tell me to ignore the haters, but their words and comments still hurt. It's so easy to tell people to ignore insults, but if it's physical if I got punched by someone in real life, are you going to tell me to ignore it and shrug it off? Just because the wounds are emotional and not physical, just because the wounds are invisible and cannot be seen, doesn't mean they don't exist. Pyschological damage and verbal abuse is not something one can just "ignore" or "pretend" it doesn't happen. They have very real effects on your health and your life.

    Perhaps commenters should think about that more before just callously leaving a "this story is trash" review - and best of all, they never actually explain why the story is trash or why the characters are retarded. Just "can't stand the beta MC" (what the hell does beta even mean?) or "the story is garbage." It's so easy for you to take less than a minute to write a couple of sentences condemning my story that I spent hours to write for each chapter. The least you could do is at least elaborate why you think the story is trash or boring, or why you hate the character instead of delivering cruel, throwaway lines that you didn't even give much thought into writing.

    You might think it's just words. But words have very real effects on the people you deliver them to.

      Tomoyuki Nobody is telling you to ignore the emotional pain you were (I believe still are) enduring. I hope this was not a response to my post in which I was sharing about my physical illness? Me sharing it doesn't mean that it negates your mental struggle. If you feel that way, then I apologize for that. It was never the intention. And if it wasn't a response to my post, let me apologize as well for getting ahead of myself.

      I'm not gonna tell you to ignore the haters who left you those offensive comments because it is definitely not okay what they did. Psychological damage is indeed something that needs to be taken seriously. Not all scars show, doesn't mean there were no wounds.

      So, no, I'm not gonna tell you to ignore the haters, but, what I'll tell you is:

      1) Have you tried looking for professional help? You've admitted about the psychological damage that you've suffered, and seeing how you chose the opening sentence of your post (and also from what I've seen in some of your other posts), you probably have a constant, critical, and shaming inner voice, who keeps telling you that you're not worth it. In the opening of your post, you wrote, "I'm probably going to waste people's time...".
      Why do you think that way? Because you're not. And even if other people think and/or say you're wasting their time, so what? They can choose not to waste their time by not reading your post. It's their time, their choice, it's on them, not on you. And from the story that you've shared in your post above, I can also tell that you're the kind of person with a heightened or excessive sense of responsibility. You were trying to meet those readers' demand for a mass release, even when you were not feeling well. Now, if you don't know this already, but these are all characteristics of a depression. So, if you haven't sought and/or received some professional help, I sincerely hope that you would.

      2) Don't ever let someone else's distorted or unfair perception about you undermine your own self-worth. Some people will always be critical to you, no matter what you do. When this happens, learn not to take it personally. Because it's really more about them than it's about you. I know this is easier said than done. But at one point, this is just something that you really need to learn to be more at peace.

      3) There was this saying, and I've learned that this is especially true, primarily in the past months of my life: Life is too short to stress yourself with people who don't even deserve to be an issue in your life.

      4) So, more self-love, please. You are not a nobody (as you yourself declared on your profile description), and sometimes it's absolutely necessary to salute people with your middle finger and tell them to "GOEST & FUCKETH THEMSELVES!"

      Sincerely.

        Cantiara No, usually my readers tell me that. Wasn't referring to you, sorry for not being clear. I'm just sharing the writer's side of things (if I can call myself a writer at that, as I said, I don't deserve to call myself one). Was inspired by you sharing your experience, but it wasn't meant to be a direct response. Sorry about that.

        1. I can't afford to. Psychiatrist treatment costs way too much for someone like me who's only working part-time.

        2. As you said, it's something that is easier said than done. And ties in to what my other readers tell me, to ignore the hurtful comments.

        3. Not so much stressed as I am hurt, actually. Even if I try to ignore it and distract myself, it's still there, gnawing at my heart. As I said, the psychological damage is real, and words will spill over to affect the other party's life. Someone once said that words are something you can give but can never take back, because once they're said and heard, there is no "un-saying" or "un-hearing" them. Just like a punch or a slap.

        4. I honestly don't think it's a good idea to curse and swear at other people. I can't go around complaining about other people verbally abusing me on one hand, and then verbally abuse them on the other. I don't think it's fair or acceptable behavior on my part.

        Thank you for your post, though.

          Tomoyuki

          And there you go again, undermining your self-worth. Saying you don't deserve to call yourself a writer. Don't do that.

          And you're not willing to let the haters taste their own dose of meds is because you still put too much focus on their well-being, more than your own. And by doing this, you're only discounting your own hurt and sorrow and therefore struggling with your self-compassion. Another red flag for a depression.

          If you're on discord, you can DM me, if you want, whenever you need someone to chat with. I'm not a professional counselor, and therefore may not be able to offer you a sound advice from an expert's point of view, but you can always tell me whenever something is bothering you. It always helps if you get it off your chest.

          If you feel uncomfortable about it, that's okay too. Or if you already have some friends you can share your struggles with, that's good. Just try to take care of yourself more.

            Cantiara Good night. Don't worry about me, I'll live.

            I don't have Discord. I received a lot of abuse and insults on Discord, which was why I deleted my Discord account and never returned. Got burned too much by it. That's actually where the bulk of the insults come from, where people (sometimes other writers even) tell me I should give up writing because I don't have talent, or that I am lowering the standard of the website with my atrocious writing. There was one time where one guy saw my story in Trending, and basically proceeded to take lines from my first chapter and ripped it apart in front of everyone in the main Discord channel, much to everyone's amusement. After a while, I couldn't stand the influx of PMs and stuff, and I just deleted my Discord altogether.

              yaoyueyi My take on your post. πŸ‘πŸ½πŸ‘πŸ½πŸ‘πŸ½πŸ‘πŸ½πŸ‘πŸ½πŸ‘πŸ½πŸ‘πŸ½ Well said ans remember , you always come first because this is your story . You are writing a story to share to the world and we the readers must be patient so you can be as creative as you want. β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈπŸ§‘πŸ’›πŸ’šπŸ’™πŸ’œπŸ–€πŸ’œπŸ–€πŸ’œβ€οΈπŸ§‘β€οΈπŸ–€πŸ§‘πŸ–€β€οΈπŸ’œπŸ’œβ€οΈπŸ§‘πŸ’›πŸ’šπŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’šπŸ’›πŸ§‘β€οΈπŸ’š

              Tomoyuki I hate hearing assholes. Abusing from an individual because they feel safe form the other end of the screen. F those people I have little to no care for any disrespectful, inconsiderate, individuals. I'm in only one discord server and that's my own that was built by coincidence, with a small group that dont wish to be in any big community just have a place to talk, feel safe and joke around every now and then we deal with vants, depression and a variety of dellemas. We are just a dysfunctional group of close strangers.

              Hope you get better.

              And truth be told getting a person to look at your book means you did something right. Getting them to read it and share their thoughts shows that it did something. Any person who takes the time to look at your book, then read, and still have the time to comment. They are bull shiting when they say you don't deserve to be a writer. I know if to give a book a chance by the first few sentences, and afterwards it's up to the author. I read on a regular basis and I don't believe in the thought of a bad story. Only things I see are different styles of delivery and editing issues. I have yet to see any author struggle with story.

              The fact that you are willing to write and share your work you are truly amazing and I respect you to the fullest. I had opportunities to publish, and surfed various writing outlets and never really took any major opportunities, just jumped in and out of scenes to develop and learn from more veteran writers. This is gonna be the first time I publish a full composition to a community of people. And I'm still nervous and questioning if I should publish or not. I have a few stories hidden away that I've shared with several people throughout my life that I met along the way and were interested in just looking into what I was doing. Hell I even orally delivered hrs of content, that felt like mins to me. But some people remember me from. Those truly interested and invested in your writing will always share their true thoughts, show their appreciation and aim to help and develop your craft everyone else is just there for attention.

              Guess one thing I tell every writer is the best story you can write is one that you yourself is willing to read.

                UnniSara21

                You won't find my other writing under this name. The only things under this pseudonym are on this site.

                That said, you're welcome to read the work I post on this site, if you'd like! <3

                Rak0 Thanks. And I think you should give it a shot and publish your stories . If someone like me can do it, I think you can too. Go for it. You have a few? Publish them all! I think that's great.

                  Tomoyuki Okay, just know if you ever decide to create a new discord account and wanna talk, my offer still stands. Gonna delete my discord id in my previous post, though, don't really want to announce it publicly. I'm guessing those hurtful incidents happened not too long ago? That's why the pain is still gnawing at your heart. That's natural because you're still traumatized. It's really not okay what they did to you, even if they think they had the right reasons to justify it, it's just not okay. Talking about those events over and over again can help with your healing process, so don't hesitate to do so just because you're afraid that it would only waste someone else's time. I hope you'll be able to heal and come out a stronger person. Take good care of yourself. You're worth it.

                    Cantiara Thank you. Yeah, it was not too long ago, sometime this year. And I will do my best.

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                      Tomoyuki

                      I'm down to talk as well if you ever do come back to Discord.

                      I despise people who 'abuse' people's novel for amusement.

                      Criticism is fine, but not toxicity.

                      You do seem like a person who does bring reasoning into arguments, I think I'd enjoy having a chat, haha.

                      Continue writing, ignore the haters!

                        Tomoyuki I agree that the harm done by inappropriate readers or trolls to the author, rude and boorish remarks, they harm two people. First, the author, bringing him emotional and heart trauma. And then spoiling your(reader who scolds the author) karma as a person, having done evil, it will return to the one who created it. So readers be kind, and you will be helped in difficult times, karma will work for good and not for evil.

                          Gourmet_DAO SinB Thank you both. I will do my best to continue writing, and I am blessed to have quite a few kind readers who encourage me. Which is actually the reason why I didn't give up and persisted. I don't want to disappoint the people who like my stuff.

                          Sometimes people make fun of other people in what they think is a harmless manner, and I don't think they mean any real harm or had any malicious intent. But their amusement sometimes comes at the expense of others, and it is the victims that I really feel for, especially since I experienced it myself and know how much it hurts.

                            Ok thank you but we are captivated to you r story so sorry for interpreputed

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