Cilliez, to tell the truth, I am pretty much the same except I used to be jealous of my brother even
though I was better than him at most stuff, so that ate at me so bad till I was 14 when I stopped giving a shit and
started enjoying little things in life. I started watching anime and I came to America and life has been good. I don't feel
jealous anymore and I don't blame anyone for how I felt or expect my mom to give me the same love for me as
my brother. we are all human and parents always have a favorite so. if you ever have kids make sure the other
kids don't notice, I was a smarty pants and figured my mom loved my brother more than me when I was ten, after
that discovery I tried my best to impress her as I was a kid but never got anything back and that made me mad
and I used to fight a lot with other kids and my impression in my family dropped and after that, I just smile for
them whenever I meet them but never seek them out if I need something. But I guess that is life. Novels,
manga, anime, and games barely filled that hole till I got a girlfriend, kinda feels weird being loved and not
expected anything in return. So now I am emotional free like a mc making a mental breakthrough, I feel so fresh, so my friend hang in there you will leave that shadow world for I am too familiar with it.
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