I was dazing ...while wet... alone ..sitting in a dark room with no light ....It's was after a funeral .. I was wearing a suit and the best one I ever had,the suit is full precious memory and in the end a bad one ..it was wet and dirty with mud .. 2 hour past afternoon I was dazing by myself in a room that had a brown soft carpet ,sitting on a sofa staring at an old clock owned by my last grandparent for my mother site and the last one that I can possibly loss that day..
I mutter silently as the sound of rain coming from the window
[They break the bond of family for meager profit and small entertainment that they think is important , they think money from land that is not they're can make richness without working...and this time it's my mother site]
I look in front of me to see a professional office table used by my grandfather when he was young, a place where he din't sleep for days just to feed my father and his sibling ..I remember my father told me how he become inspired by grandfather to be what he is now... successful, then I look at the old framed picture on the table and see myself when I was young with all my other cousin hugging while posing ,but now with the relationship of our family broken like this and the influence of my aunt and uncle throughout they're live I wonder what will become when we met once again later in life..
BUT THAT'S WHEN I WENT TO REDDIT AND MET ANIME HAH! and of course then comic's like manga, manhwa and after that novels, now here I am sitting on a slightly different chair than in my Grandfather room but I have to make do,I stood with some will after 2 months and said loudly with a will to be like my father and my grandfather.. a Sir!, A GENTLEMAN! ,I AM MONSIEURWEEB!!! MUAHAHAHAHA , and yes the chair is because I have to compensate some loss(crying and sniffing nose sound)
(True story of how i'm addicted to internet: WHAT I WAS DEPRESSED!! of course i'm okay now and can socialize normally)