MrRabbit I am not sad, nor depressed, thanks for your concern. As I said it is not their actions that upset me, but the powerlessness I feel to be able to say something in response to it that will take this weight off of me.
In a real life convo when someone calls you a whore, you make up some shit as well "yeah well i heard you sucked so and so's dick, come talk to me when you get the cum off your face" which may or may not cause an argument, to which i would gladly participate to be more at ease, but in this server i had personally experienced that you get muted and warned and banned and the rules were pointed out to me.
This biasness is not fair to me and that pisses me off more so than the actual insult. The fact that someone like Miya, who was once neutral, will laugh and joke with this person and then when he does shit like this they will tell me to let it go, to me its baffling to see that bias association continue to take hold. People sit back and watch him do the stuff they say nothing, if I say something, you see what I get? laughs, popcorn and let it gos. Who will tell him to let it go? When do I get the chance to retaliate and respond and say nasty things about him and spread lies and rumors about his intelligence and what little sex he can get?
All I can do to vent my rage is this little bit on the forums, with the hope that this message reaches those and warns them of what kind of environment the discord server is. I have been in many discord servers, and most don't allow toxic things like that to persist as long as this has, and its probably only because they let him, which brings me back to the bias i feel.
To clarify once more, I have never once been saddened or depressed by this. I reach out for the irritation of not being able to confront the monster because of bias rules that will only apply to me.